A painful clenching in my heart.. tears streaming out.. my eyes no longer my eyes.. simply twin orbes of streaming tears.. unstopable.. uncontrollable.. here I lay.. sobbing alone.. willing out the surpressed ache within my heart.. wishing that as the burning tears streaks out of my eyes and down my salty cheeks.. the scorching pain in my heart will pour out of me as well.. Alone.. Alone I craddled myself.. no longer aware of the outer world.. i NEED him.. where is he? why can't he see how upset I am? minuets ago..we were talking.. i wanted him to comfort me.. to reassure me.. to surround me with feelings of his love.. instead.. he told me he needed silence..[ ] of all his words.. that cut through me the most.. leaving my heart.. a shuddering bloody mess.. hemorrhaging pain out of every pore.. a seemingly unending supply of brokeness..mixed with the bleakness to this hour. Is love really worth all the pains and suffering it entitles? Are those sudden snatches of happiness enough to compensate for this constant worrying and pains?
Pondering through.. as idiotic as it may seem.. yes love is worth all those things.. and more.. at least.. true love is..
If love means one's willing to die for the other.. then how can feeling pain.. in order to love someone be too much to ask for? true love can live through all consequences.. or die trying.. so I guess now.. it's.. how far am I willing to go?
After a night of restlessness.. J'ai rendu compte que.. I love him... I love him so much.. all the pain in the world.. is worth being with him.. if only to catch.. those rare glimpses of time.. when i can make him laugh.. without a care for the world..

I believee we can compromise.. maybe it'd take years.. maybe it'd take days.. or minutes.. or even decades.. but with enough love.. and enough will.. what's not doable?